Let it go

I have a personality that is not even tempered. If I'm happy, you'll know it. If I'm frustrated, irritated or annoyed, you'll know it. How? It's written all over my face. I do know that when I'm feeling negatively that I have to be really conscious about how I act because although I never intend to upset or be unkind to people intentionally, I can UN intentionally say something that is unkind. I know how to 'bite my tongue' so to speak. What I have a hard time with is when a person asks me why I'm feeling a certain way and then does not listen. Matt ALWAYS tell me not to worry and for so long, I just couldn't NOT worry about certain things. It would be like saying "Mandy, just be happy 100% of the time". Easier said than done. Anyways, I was explaining my predicament to a close family friend he gave me advice that I can actually wrap my brain around. He said "you have to learn to let it go". I don't know why that seems easier than "don't worry about it" but anytime I have found myself consumed with worry, all I have to say to myself is "let it go, Mandy" and I can stop worrying about whatever is was I was worrying about. I tend to over-analyze and it is a habit that I am trying to let go of.

I was sad last week to learn that 2 of Tanner's surgeons are semi-retiring and won't be his surgeons in his next surgeries. I was filled with gratitude for the great doctors they are and the choice they made to be doctors. I know the next surgeons will be good as well but change can be hard when you've built up a rapport and trust with certain doctors.

Tanner has a lot of spunk lately. He called up my Mom and asked her to send him a Valentines package and to please send his baby (which he forgot last week when we were there) with it. He's has also been really kind and sensitive lately. We started this love jar for Valentines day and we write something we love about each person in our family every day BUT we also include something about our self that we love. Tanner told me he wrote that he loved his spikey hair on Sunday. Oh man! I love that kid!

Life, overall, is good. We're looking forward to spending some time in Calgary with my family at Easter and meet our new little nephew (due in 3 weeks).